Dark memories, dripping through the cracks. Walls built up, starting to crumble. She was waking up. That look in other’s eyes when they asked her tale, the pity. She was once told she was “a brave soldier.” She hated that. She hated being told that. She wasn’t brave. She was like countless others who had … More Now We Live
Thoughts move slowly, pushing through the thick fog. Getting lost. What was she thinking? What was she doing? What happened to the last hour? Her brain was stuffed. Full of sticky thoughts. Staring at walls, not knowing what to do. She wanted to do something, and nothing. It was too hard to think. Every thought … More Marshmallow Brain
Full moon rises, signaling the final cycle of summer. With it comes waves of emotions as it pulls at us. What did the last month bring? What will next month bring? What does she need to be rid of? She reflected on the powers controlling her, realizing how much she was influenced by others still. … More Harvest Moon Rises
Life can be overwhelming. The world is in chaos. Anxiety sets in, wrapping it’s fingers around her chest. Squeezing, suffocating. All-consuming, no way out. Cold laughter, it’s winning. Breath comes shorter, harder, shallower, more and more difficult. Vision fogs, brain stops functioning. Surely this is death. Must escape. This is not death. This is yet … More Breathe—The cold hands of anxiety
*Trigger Warning. Contains stories of sexual, physical, and mental abuse. She was 16. Her eating disorder had gotten worse in the past year, bad enough that she felt the need to reach out for help. It was the Cinco de Mayo celebration at her school. She had binged on delicious food, then promptly went to … More When her world fell apart, he was there.
She felt a change coming. The world around felt off balance. Something big was coming. The energy in her wasn’t flowing, dammed up pools of swirling energy waiting to be set free. Now was a time of rest, she’d need her strength for what was to come next. She wouldn’t pretend to know what that … More When the dams break
This morning I woke up grumpy, for no apparent reason. This happens more regularly than I would like. I woke up and immediately everything bothered me—it’s too hot, my head hurts, my dog won’t stop standing where I’m trying to walk, the kitchen is dirty, the roll of toilet paper in the bathroom is getting … More Embracing negative emotions—welcoming and accepting bad moods instead of fighting them.
This post is going to be a little different than my previous posts. This morning, I listened to a live stream by the Manifestion Babe. She brought up one of my favorite practices of late and I want to share my practice with you all—releasing what no longer serves me and inviting that which helps … More Universe—I release to you all that no longer serves me. Please guide me on my path to manifesting my best life.
One year. One year of choices made. One year of growing up, of radical change, of heartbreak, of joy, of newfound friendship, new family, new everything. They said no major changes in the first year, but she changed it all. She became The Girl again. She found her voice. She found her freedom. It had … More She was a force of nature— Reflecting on one year of sobriety and finding herself again
The girl was raised in a loosely Christian household. She went to church with her family as a child, went to Sunday school, participated in Christmas plays, and prayed. She never felt hate in her childhood church, and to this day, this church holds a special place in her heart. She sold painted rocks to … More Wait– I get to decide what I believe? A journey to spirituality and freedom.